So life has been hella crazy, I haven’t really been uploading to my booktube channel, my spiritual practice has not been what I want it to be, and my mental health has been suffering. I’m in a better place now and on a path to getting better. I want to come back to this blog and also give a little life update.
What’s been happening:
To keep it short and sweet what was supposed to be a temporary stay with family until we got relocated to Texas turned into almost a year. The financial situation was not great, and a lot of my triggers for past trauma were constantly hit. The family we were staying with are hardcore fundamentalist Christians and as a bisexual witch that was tough, to say the least.
All the feels were happening and I felt constantly on the edge of a breakdown. There was even a point where my self-harm thoughts came back. I am very grateful for my boyfriend, I don’t know if I would have made it without his support. I’m doing a lot better, I’ve had some rough days but it’s been moving in a positive direction.
I’ve put on a lot of weights and as a result, my joints have been giving me even more trouble and I have even less energy than I usually do. I was very weak and my headaches were getting worse and worse. I’m working on being more active. I find that personally if I’m more physically active I see an improvement in my mental health. It’s not a magical fix for anything but I find it to be one of the things I can do to help myself.
Where I am now:
We are settled into our apartment in Texas, and I love it. The job hunt has been a little stressful (we moved here for his job) but things are looking promising. I’ve gotten back into pen paling and I’ve been really enjoying that. Once I feel a little more settled I would like to return to making videos and getting my channel going again.